Fake

Fake

Forgive me for meaning “til death do us part”
Forgive me for actually giving you my heart
Why is it just ok that you broke every vow?
You tell me, what am I supposed to do with myself now?
Because when two become one that’s supposed to change things
And now I’m alone in this world and have not one but two rings
You promised and signed on a line for better or worse
Then sent our marriage to the back of a hearse
Years have passed and unfortunately I’m still the same me
I’m further than ever from where I’m supposed to be
I’m still here but the future and I cannot connect
There are levels of disdain here I’m unable to project
I don’t want something else and I don’t need anyone
I mean something to the world but I hate what I’ve become
I know I should settle, but there aren’t enough reasons
I’m in the passing lane, it’s just I’m passing seasons
There is no amount of hope to set my heart straight
I learned that real is rare just a little too late
Don’t judge me until you spend a minute in my head
I’m just saying what my heart needs to be said

 

7/12/19